Pause...

Today was one of those rare days that I wish I could freeze time, so that I could relive the moments over and over again. I tapped into my jovial side and allowed reality to have the night off. There were movies, smoothies, pizza and a bottle of Tums for my not so young digestive system...LOL. The boys were wrestling with each other and I fearlessly instigated a tickle fest that would inevitably send my youngest scurrying to the restroom to avoid an "accident". I was reminded of why I am so much in love with my children; and how grateful I am that they breathe life into the deepest parts of my soul, the parts that often lay dormant and untouched. There was so much laughter in the house, so much open dialogue between my boys and I , and it was some the loveliest sounds I've ever heard.

See, this part of "home" I know very well, the part where my boys look to me for everything, and I go to the ends of the earth to provide it for them. The part where I make sure that each day, by Gods grace, I try to give them at least one thing to apply to their own lives; some nugget of truth, a kiss or a hug, or even a swift kick in the butt if the situation calls for it. A place of warmth and refuge, one where we can gather and grow as a family. I know that my heart is home, home to my God and to my children, and those two things alone give me limitless joy and comfort.

So as I continue to search for this new location, it is extremely important for me to stay grounded to the truths that my mother instilled in me; that wherever I lay my head down to rest, to make sure that my heart is there with me. I suppose that is why I've never been afraid to be anywhere, I've never left my heart behind. But there's alot more riding on this particular relocation because I am banking on it being my very last. This will be the place where I finish raising my youngest and begin the second half of my life (the better half). The place where I welcome and spoil my grand babies and finally have those enormous holiday dinners. The place where again I will find myself wishing that I could freeze time, so that I can relive the moments...over and over again. Home is indeed where the heart is, and my heart is truly blessed. T-Minus 356...